Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls
15 quotes
"I want to tell him that it's just a stupid car, but bits of me are scattered all over town; the graveyard, school, Cassie's room, the motel, and standing in from of the sink in my mother's kitchen. It takes too much energy to gather all the bits together, so I just sit there and watch him implode."
"Dr. StupidParker says that when I'm sad it really means I'm angry and when I'm angry it really means I'm afraid."
"I want to go to sleep and not wake up, but I don’t want to die."
"Eating was hard.Breathing was hard. Living was hardest."
"I am beginning to measure myself in strength, not pounds. Sometimes in smiles."
"There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore."
"I breathe in slowly. Food is life. I exhale, take another breath. Food is life. And that's the problem. When you're alive, people can hurt you. It's easier to crawl into a bone cage or a snowdrift of confusion. It's easier to lock everybody out. But it's a lie."
"Emma is a mattress who got thrown off the truck when her parents split up. It's not like you can blame a mattress when people don't tie it down tight enough."
"I am angry that I starved my brain and that I sat shivering in my bed at night instead of dancing or reading poetry or eating ice cream or kissing a boy..."
"Fracture lines etch the surface of the glass box as if a body fell from the sky and landed on it. He doesn't hear the impact, can't smell the blood."
"I drift into the armpits of strangers, tasting their manic salt, and sleep to forget everything."
"I want to eat like a normal person eats, but I needto see my bones or I will hate myself even more and Imight cut out my heart or take every pill that was evermade."
"I'm learning how to taste everything."
"And that’s the problem. When you’realive, people can hurt you. It’s easier to crawl into a bonecage or a snowdrift of confusion. It’s easier to lock everybodyout.But it’s a lie."
"I have to go. Boss hasthis weird idea that I should actually work while he’s payingme."