Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places
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"I think it's early. Early in our lives. Early in the night. Early in the new year. If you're counting, you'll notice the earlys outnumber the lates."
"The problem with people is they forget that most of the time it's the small things that count. Everyone's so busy waiting in the Waiting Place. If we stopped to remember that there's such a thing as a Purina Tower and a view like this, we'd all be happier."
"Were you planning to jump off?"“Not on pizza day. Never on pizza day, which is one of the better days of the week.” I should mention that I am a brilliant deflector."
"I run until time stops. Until my mind stops."
"For a minute, I can feel it: the sense of peace as my mind goes quiet, like I'm already dead. I am weightless and free. Nothing and no one to fear, not even myself."
"She waves her arms at the world. "It's all just time filler until we die."
"Angry at him for leaving without a word, angry at myself for being so easy to leave and for not being enough to make him want to stick around."
"I love the thrill of impending, weightless doom..."
"Since I stopped writing, I read more than ever. Other people's words, not my own--my words are gone."
"It's my experience that people are a lot more sympathetic if they can see you hurting, and for the millionth time in my life I wish for measles or smallpox or some other easily understood disease just to make it easier on me and also on them."
"I’m sorry about Finch. He was a good, screwed up kid who should have had more help.” “I feel responsible."
"I think about Finch and Sir Patrick Moore and black holes and blue holes and bottomless bodies of water and exploding stars and event horizons, and a place so dark that light can't get out once it's in."
"In those moments, none of it matters. It’s like that stuff is happening to someone else because all you feel is dark inside, and that darkness just kind of takes over. You don’t even really think about what might happen to the people you leave behind, because all you can think about is yourself."
"Never bullshit a bullshitter."
"I can be both of us at once so no one will have to miss her, most of all me. I I"
"There aren't many people who would say this about me, but the great thing about this life of ours is that you can be someone different to everybody."
"You make me lovely, and it's so lovely to be lovely to the one I love..."
"Is today a good day to die?Is today the day?And if not today–when?"
"You are all the colours in one, at full brightness."
"I should be happy, but instead I feel nothing. I feel a lot of nothing these days. I've cried a few times, but mostly I'm empty, as if whatever makes me feel and hurt and laugh and love has been surgically removed, leaving me hollowed out like a shell."
"A string of thoughts run through my head like a song I can't get rid of, over and over in the same order: I am broken. I am a fraud. I am impossible to love."
"I'm not a vain person, but I am human..."
"I don't know what brings you up here, but to me the town looks prettier and the people look nicer and even the worst of them look almost kind."
"On all sides of us, spread out below, are little white lights and black pockets of trees. Stars in the sky, stars on the ground. It’s hard to tell where the sky ends and the earth begins. I hate to admit it, but it’s beautiful."
"It's okay to laugh, you know. The earth's not going to split open. You're not going to hell. Believe me. If there's a hell, I'll be there ahead of you, and they'll be too busy with me to even check you in."